final year..final sem..finally!

okeh, it might sound nice to know i'll be ending my 6 years course soon

yet...
the final fight is such a scary thing to think rite now.huhu..

why? first of all, the project paper a.k.a the thesis!! (which in fact i've put -1 preparation for it.dang.must catch up fast before it's too late..)
not enuf with dat, i'll be having other four subjects/courses as well..uuuuh~

errr..excuse me, cik farina..what's up with such negative attitude at the beginning of a new year???

whooopss.. =P

hey, it's 1st january 2011! happy new year everyone.
so let's mark this new year with great hope and positive determination..
and not to forget, the true battle must continue.. if possible, this year, let's run to HIM!! =)

ya Rabb, may it's still not too late for us to be grateful to Your blessings and for us to be good servant of Yours.. and good follower of Prophet Muhammad s.a.w..amin~

lastly, best wishes to all..for the year of 2011.

with luv, farina

missing something

they are cute..naughty..at times made me angry yet made me smile by the next seconds..

boys and girls.. i miss u guys..

-study well..achieve your dream of life..

dedicated to 1A2 and 1A5 students of SMK Ibrahim, Sg. Petani

7 checkpoints di titian sirat

malam tadi ikut kawan pergi tarawih kat masjid luar, first time nak cuba masjid ni.selalu kalau lalu, tengok je.cantik..macam rumah..macam muzium..tak nampak macam masjid sangat.macam best je kalau jemaah kat sini.alhamdulillah, malam tadi ada kelapangan untuk ziarah salah satu rumah Allah di bumi ni. (hm, mesti cuba rajin2kan diri untuk ziarah tau.tak seronok ke jadi tetamu Allah? =) ) sampai2 je, subhanAllah..speaker mengalunkan azan.bergema hingga ke tangkai hati.latar belakang pulak ada bulan penuh yang bercahaya, macam berlian tergantung kat langit.cuaca redup.timbul suatu perasaan yang nyaman.terfikir dalam hati, (entah, tiba2 je muncul) macam mana suasana di Mekah? yang dah pernah ziarah Mekah mesti dapat bayangkan.(doakanlah untuk giliran saya pulak ye).

sebab dah azan, cepat2 melangkah ke ruang solat.rupanya bukan kat luar je cantik, kat dalam pun cantik.karpet, hiasan kayu, susunan Quran.best2.tarawih 8 rakaat, witir 3 rakaat. lepas tu ada tazkirah. haa, ni baru nk sentuh pasal tajuk entri ni. nama ustaz tu saya taktau.nak check kat jadual masjid, tak jumpa pulak.tapi tazkirah dia seronok.tak mengantuk sebab cara penyampaian dia yang simple, ada jokes n contoh2 yg diberi sangat relevan dengan kita.

okay, pasal titian sirat tu..ustaz bagitau ada 7 checkpoints yang perlu dilalui semasa melintas titian sirat tu.. setiap checkpoint itu akan bertanyakan sesuatu dari kita. dan 7 perkara yang akan ditanya pada setiap checkpoint itu ialah: (semua ni yang dapat saya ingat dari apa yang ustaz tu sampaikan la ye. banyak lagi yang dia cerita tapi tak dapat ingat semua)

1. tentang iman kita - "gemuk ke, kurus ke iman kita"...dan iman manusia sangat tidak konsisten; ada turun naik, banyak kepada turun, naik sikit je.jadi kena la subur2kan iman.antara caranya ialah dengan menghadiri majlis2 ilmu, datang ke masjid..
2. tentang solat - cukup tak? kalau cukup, sempurnakah? ingatlah, jangan pernah berhenti belajar tentang solat.mungkin kita dah solat berpuluh2 tahun tapi pasti ke solat itu betul? contoh yg ustaz tu bagi ialah pasal sujud. ada yang tak kena dahi la, lutut tak letak betul, jari2 kaki tak dilipat ke arah kiblat..7 anggota sujud wajib kena pada tempat sujud.kalau yang tak tau tu, lepas ni ubahla ye =)
3. soal zakat - yang ni, ustaz kata kalau tak tau, boleh tanya pegawai2 zakat, insyaAllah mereka boleh terangkan.
4. tentang puasa kita - macam mana puasa kita? sekadar berlapar atau mengharapkan keredhaan Allah? oh, satu yang ustaz bagitau tentang bulan puasa, kita rasa sekejap je masa berlalu. tengok2 hari ni dah hari ke 17 puasa.sangat cepat kan? dah nak masuk 10 malam ke-2 dan ke-3. part ni ada joke ustaz buat.kalau kat mekah, malam2 terakhir jalan akan sesak teruk, sebab semua orang keluar dengan family nk pergi masjid.semua nak cari al-Qadar (malam lailatulQadar). kat Malaysia pun akan jem jugak.tapi bukan cari alQdar, cari alKamdar (hehehe).tak salah nk pergi..boleh je. shopping lah kat mana pun.tapi jangan sampai tergadai berkat dan tawaran Ramadhan ye =)
5. soal umrah dan haji - kepada mereka yang dah ada rezeki untuk pergi umrah dan haji, alhamdulillah..tapi ada reminder jugak.betul tak niat tu? hmm...
6. mandi janabah- (ya Allah, masa dengar ni, sangat risau..moga Dia ampunkan jika ada yang kurang atau yang tak sempurna) ustaz bagi reminder, especially untuk ibu2..perhatikan anak2 dara masing2..make sure mereka tahu tentang mandi wajib setelah habis haid. tapi mandi janabah ni bukan fokus kat perempuan je.yang lelaki pun kena jaga juga.
7. hubungan dengan manusia (ada 3 pecahan)

• hubungan kita dgn ibu bapa --> satu yg ustaz pesan kena ambil berat: bila ibu bapa menyuarakan keinginan ke atas sesuatu terhadap kita wajib kita penuhi.contoh, mak ngidam nk makan something, dia bagitau kita..walaupun mak kita boleh beli sendiri, duit banyak ke ape ke..kita wajib/mesti usahakan jugak untuk bagi dia..kalau ayah kata teringin nk pakai jubah macam ni, macam tu..usahakan supaya keinginan ayah tu tercapai. meskipun kita fikir dalam hati "alah ayah ni, macam la tak boleh pergi beli sendiri..."

• hubungan silaturrahim sesama manusia --> dengan adik beradik pun berisiko tau.so kena hati2 dalam bab ni (dan semua2 perkara yg lain jugak)

• adakah kita pernah menzalimi orang lain --> kalau kita zalim, buatlah amalan banyak mana pun, semua akan dicabut dan diberi kepada orang yang pernah kita zalimi.jadi amalan kita tinggal kosong.so, kalau diberi amanah sebagai ketua terutamanya..berhati2 la.jangan sampai kita jadi pemimpin yang zalim

beware ye.kalau sangkut kat mana2 checkpoint kat atas ni, neraka la jawabnye.sebab titian sirat tu di atas mulut neraka. sanggupkah nak rasa otak mendidih, tekak perit dan terseksa dengan logam cair yang menggelegak? na'uzubillah~

** bulan Ramadhan ni malaikat seolah2 sangat dekat dengan bibir, segala yang terucap pasti diaminkan.jadi jom banyak2 berdoa. semoga amalan Ramadhan diterima dan dosa2 diampunkan.amin2 ya rabbal alamin.

ramadhan oh ramadhan

to all muslims, i would like to wish happy fasting. erm, a few reminders to share, for myself as well

*let's be more cautious of our sight, our speech, our doings, and our hearing, may all be kept away from things which may degrade d value of our fasting,

*be patient wif whatever may come during this fasting month, as it may be a mehnah from Him (Rabb's own way of teaching us) and may we become one of d as-sobirin..amin,

*top up extra extra EXTRa LARGE on our ibadah.every single thing counts.recite d Quranul Kareem more, praise HIM always..subhanaLlah, alHamduliLlah, Allahuakbar..Lailaha ilLaLlah..and not to forget our dearest blessed prophet Muhammad s.a.w

hmm..gotta rush for my laundry..anyone, mind to add more? that's most welcome =)

may dis Ramadhan brings us closer to HIm, eternally.amin

again, salam ramadhan al-mubarak to you

stop grumbling, instead, say "thank you Allah"

if ever i am rich, if only i am born rich..

-i can have my own printer and need not to depend on others

-i can have my own transport and go back to my hometown by myself to visit my family when they're having troubles..and i need not to hitchhike to go to SMK Ibrahim

-i can have more collection of muslimah dresses, long skirts and even jubah

-i can buy books that i want, especially those expensive ones

-i can fly to mecca and medina, to experience the great feeling myself

-i won't add burden to dad for my daily expenses

-i need not to borrow money from others; which is actually really shameful

and so the list goes...

last week itself, i cried quietly on my pillow, as i have all the thoughts above.oh, how shameful of me to be such ungrateful creature. an ungrateful human being who has been given free oxygen to breath, free land to live on without paying any rental fee, complete and healthy body with the ability to taste food and drinks, to understand happiness and love and numerous other ni'mat..

how shame of you, farina!

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today...

alhamdulillah, i am allocated at SMK Ibrahim for my practicum, which is free from any criminal, juvenile or problematic students

alhamdulillah, until today, everything went smooth and fine

alhamdulillah, i got form 1 for my teaching practice during this practicum, as how i've wished

alhamdulillah, all the teachers at this school is nice and welcomes me to the school

alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..i've started to feel the joy of being an educator, 4 example, when today a student shows her upset face as i told her that i won't be teaching their class..or when students greet me with wide smiles and cheerful faces, also the great feeling after helping a girl to feel better by giving her some advice regarding her personal problem. all these great and stimulating experience despite the low and down feeling i had during the first week..

alhamdulillah, He listens to my prayer and help me to build confidence in facing the students and help me to recover from my low-spirit in teaching

yes, it is too early still..i have not started to plan the lesson.i have not being observed by the teacher and the lecturer.i have not faced students' misbehavior in the classroom. a lot more to come in fact..

but at the current moment, i am gladly thankful to Allah..for everything that He has arranged for me

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farina..

can you see how fair HE is? being rich isn't all that you need. peaceful mind and heart is far more valuable. besides, you are not like others who don't even have food to eat and proper home to stay. . if you feel like you are lacking of or missing something in your life, be patient and try to think again, with a calm mind, and list down all the gifts that HE has actually given to you, or, perhaps not now, but for the later life if you keep being patient and be grateful to HIM. oh, but not only that.fulfill your obligation to HIm, and keep walking to the eternal happiness in the eternal world.

p/s: if you are born rich, how sure are you that all the money won't be wasted and spent on unnecessary things. how sure are you that you will spend the money for HIM? how sure are you that you won't forget HIm and keep your faith in HIm? just look at how Firaun turns out to claim that he is god just because Allah made him healthy for his whole life.and how Qarun's belongings and wealth gone as he became ungrateful man after receiving his wealth.

so stop grumbling and appreciate what you have. do you understand dear? =)