emosi!

ya Allah..apa dah jadi dengan ummat Muhammad sekarang?

sedihnya...bagaimana agaknya reaksi baginda menyaksikan kehancuran moral dan peribadi agama ummah tercintanya hari ini..

baginda bermati-matian untuk menyebarkan Islam!..menyemaikan akhlak dan peribadi mulia.dengan pengharapan ummat dikasihi dibawah redha Ilahi..

tapi harini..

senang2 je remaja kita buat keputusan yang jelas seolah2 mendahulukan yang lain lebih dari agama.

mendahulukan cinta yang tak halal daripada melaksanakan perintah Allah

mengutamakan trend dari tunduk dan takut akan azabNya..

tak paham! apa rasionalnya x pakai panties masa valentine!!

tak kisahla kalau memang tak nak pakai atau selesa sebegitu..setiap hari ke, bila-bila ke..

tapi kalau KHUSUS untuk VALENTINE!!! KHUSUS untuk BOYFRIEND! saya ulang BOYFRIEND!!! bahkan bukan suami!!! untuk ape??!!!! saya sangat emosi sebab fikiran waras saya rasa sangat tidak dapat menerima budaya sebegini.tak kisahla benda/ hak peribadi pun..apa yang mereka nak tunjuk?nak buktikan cinta?? nak tunjuk betapa maha hebat dan maha dalamnya cinta untuk boyfriend tersayang???

ya Allah..peliharakanlah kami dari kehancuran..aku mohon... ='(

dan ampunkanlah kelemahan diri yang hanya mampu membenci dalam hati.tak terdaya kudrat mahupun fizikal untuk menghentikannya.. isk..

adik2..tolongla..sayangilah iman kamu...sekali dah hilang, ditutup hati..ditetapkan pintu ke neraka, tidakkah timbul penyesalan?

at least, fikirlah perasaan ibu bapa..wajar ke nak buat camtu untuk seorang yang belum sah statusnya kat kita? cintalah bagai nak mati pun tapi kalau bukan nama boyfriend tu yang tertulis sebagai suami, beerti bukanlah dia.korbanlah apa pun..harta..nyawa..badan..semua sia2..semua bahkan hanya mengundang kemurkaan Allah..

p/s: maybe orang kata, ala xpakai panties je..bukan nak buat apa pun..

tapi, tak ke perbuatan tu seolah2 menunjukkan -saya akan buat apa saja untuk kamu.dan motif tak pakai?

worried~

whatever i will be doing..

wherever i'll be going..

or whoever i'll be connected to..

i beg YOU..please hold me tight in d Nur..

hihi

urgghhh.......

very

very

very painful

i

can't

bear

it

any longer

it

can't

be

delayed!!

noo!! it can't be delayed not even a second!

out of my way..now...

**flush...phewww~

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haha..do u find it gross? well, experimenting with gross subject.hikhik.

actually d main thing i wanna touch here is to be grateful.

can't see d connection?

ok la, few questions for u:

1. what if when u're doing ur pleasure business (:P) u forgot to check n u find out that u cudn't get enough water to clean urself.plus no other available alternative materials.

2. and what if, suddenly ur beloved stomach or anus (erk) got problem..or maybe not just that moment but it continued for days..weeks..months.. aaa~

soo..y don't u say thanks you Allah for the pleasure of being able to get rid those unnecessary things out of ur cute tummy..

let's say Alhamdulillah.. =)

am i guilty? if so, forgive me..please..

i feel bad.as if i've created a gap.the gap.am i guilty?

maybe there is no gap at all.could be -as usual- it's just my feeling.false feeling.

but i see different reaction.the face and the eyes appear different in front of me.

am i guilty? how i wish it's just a false feeling.

is your serious face a sign? it's different.quietly i've been thinking and wondering if ever i hurt u again..coz i alwiz did without my realization.

is there anything upset u? could it be my writing? or my action and words? or what.. ? give me a clue..i can't figure it out..not that i didn't reflect.i did..

if i am the reason for ur bad feel, forgive me.hope u know how i appreciate u.

if i am the guilty, tell me so that i can stop doing the wrongs..

the dream of the apple (part 2)

the apple is swaying rather happily on the tree..the image of the young guy slowly fades away from her..she's not much bothered by him..what has happened to her?

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few days before...

(after the apple thinks she's meet d guy of her dream)

the tree : are u sure that the guy is of your dream?

red apple : indeed! he seems to have all the qualities that i'm looking for.but...

the tree : but what dear?

red apple : i know i'm not as good as him. he fits for better apples..

the tree : then, how about you?

red apple : me? i don't know.

the tree : listen child..first, istighfar... coz unconsciously u were thinking of a guy who isn't anyone to u.neither muhrim nor husband.secondly, the way u praise him might be not proper.how great a person be, remember He who creates is indeed the Greatest!

red apple : astarghfirullah..forgive me ya Rabb..

the tree : another thing child.. do believe in Rabbul 'Alamin that He has decided the best for you.if you wish to have a great man, fix urself and try to be as great as the man u're dreaming for..inshaAllah if u two were destined, He'll make it easy for both of u.if not, probably another person is better for you.u may feel that d guy u're hoping for can lead you to HIm but..perhaps he doesn't really suits u..in other aspects maybe.. could be, he's not the one written in LuhMahfuz for u..

~And (likewise) clean and chaste women are (specific) to clean and pious men while clean and pious men are exclusively for clean and chaste women. (surah anNur:26)

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and so the red apple has returned to her calm mind and heart.she shall keep performing her rightful duties..

The END~~